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Give Your Mind a Break.


 If we are tired or sick, we tell ourselves to rest. When our bodies are sore and we have been working out, we allow ourselves “rest” days. 

We understand it is essential to rest our muscles and our bodies to avoid over working them and to help them grow or stay healthy.
So, how come when we are overwhelmed with anxiety or submerged in our depression we try to power through? I can’t speak for everyone, but I know in my own case, for a long time, I severely underestimated the power of resting my mind.

It is in my personal nature to give 100% to the people I care about and as an educator I am consistently doing a million and one things throughout the day. 

I am constantly moving from one thing to the next, giving everything I have to other people. Now, I am not complaining because I love my job, the impact I have on my students, and the random chaos that occurs throughout each day.

But, if I am not careful I will forget to refuel and burn out. Before the burn out happens I am in my head thinking of the next thing I need to complete and cross off of my ever growing “to-do” list.

 I decide to power through and get things done just for the sake of getting them done, because not having them done weighs on me like heavy bricks.

I become irritable, emotional, and cry at the drop of a hat. My depression is heightened and I become even more anxious.

It wasn’t until this past year that I realized the importance of giving my mind a break. I started taking time for myself and didn’t feel guilty about it. It wasn’t the end of the world if I didn’t get something done, or chose to take care of myself instead.

I found that some of my anxiety was in the fear of not having enough time to get things done. Reality check—there is never enough time, but through mindfulness and giving my mind the breaks it needs I am able to trust that I will get done what needs to get done for that day and allow it to be enough.

I learned that when I take the time to be mindful I in turn become calmer and think more clearly. I feel less stressed and work productively. I am happier and more fun to be around.

You see, there will always be something waiting to be checked off of your to-do list. 

You are your most important priority. Your mind is just as important, if not more, than your physical body. It’s time to start treating it that way!

*Comment below with ways that you give your mind a break, I would love to hear from you! 

-M

 

 

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The Liebster Award


I was recently tagged by Jade, a fiercely dedicated fellow mental health blogger for the Liebster Award. https://lotsoflovebyjade.wordpress.com/

This tag was created to help new bloggers be discovered and connect with the rest of the blogging community.  

The rules are:

•Recognize who tagged you and promote their blog on your blog

•Answer all questions asked of you

•Create 11 NEW questions

•Tag 11 people with under 200 followers

Questions from Lotsoflovebyjade:

1. What is your story?

In college I was diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and Dysthymia (Depression). I went through therapy with three different therapist, I really only liked two of them and my last one the most, but she left my dr office, so I am not currently going. I also tried meds for a while on and off. I am officially off all of them and take daily supplements of Turmeric and use essential oils to help me. For the longest time I had a lot of unresolved feelings from my parents divorce when I was really young. Also, growing  up I always felt different and would often get stomachaches and not want to go places because I was worrying so much, it was just constant.  I didnt know back then, but I probably have had my anxiety since at least 4th grade. I was also always coming up with excuses to not hang out with my friends or go out and sometimes I would feel really really down and just sit on the bathroom floor and cry. I didnt know any of this was depression or anxiety–it never crossed my mind back then and now a lot of my behaviors then make so much sense. Im proud of how far I have come and how I am using my voice to help others.
2. How is your recovery/self-love journey going?

My journey/self-love journey is going great. Being completely honest I did not have a lot of self-love before, deep down I actually didn’t really like myself at all. Therapy and learning more about my anxiety and depression and really understanding why I felt certain ways or responded in certain ways really helped me. The biggest thing for me is having compassion for myself. Im usually really hard on myself and used to expect myself to be perfect and “recover” quickly. I would get upset when I would have what I thought were setbacks or when I responded to situations in the same ways. Now, I try to allow myself to feel my feelings and know that recovery or being a human isnt linear. Its important to be kind to yourself when you are struggling and trying to make changes.

3. What’s one thing or person that always motivates or encourages you? 

My boyfriend and dad. (I know you said 1 but…) They always encourage me to keep doing my thing and share my experiences regarding mental health.

4. What are 5 things that make you happy? 

•my dogs

•family/boyfriend/friends

•being outside

•working out

•helping others

*not in a particular order
5. What inspired you to blog/write?

I started my very first blog last summer when I was going through therapy. Writing was therapeutic for me and it felt good to share. Im also a teacher and have seen a lot of students struggling with their mental health. This really motivated me  to start sharing more. I figured if just one person relates or finds what I am writing to be helpful then that is amazing. I know I used to feel (before I was diagnosed) that I was alone in what I was feeling and going through and it would have been helpful to have someone who had been there to know that it was a “normal” or okay.

6. What are your future plans in life? 

I have been teaching for 5 years and want to continue doing that. I want to grow my blog/community of followers to continue spreading awareness about mental health and I want to go back for my masters degree possibly in psychology.

7. What is your favorite mental health organization? 

•NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness)

•Project Semicolon 

•Suicide Prevention Lifeline 

•Crisis Text Hotline 

I was able to make suicide prevention/awareness posters for the school I teach at and included both numbers. I think it is great to give students/kids/people different ways to reach out for help.

8. What do you hope your blog will accomplish with the community or others?

I really just want to reach out to as many people as possible and help spread awareness and knowledge about mental health. I want to let people know they aren’t alone and having a mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of. I would love to collaborate with others as well. I hope people can relate to what I am writing or find it helpful and want to keep coming back for more

9. What is your opinion/thoughts on 13 Reasons Why if you watched it? 

I read the book a few years ago and liked it, so I knew I had to watch Season 1. The ending in the season was different than the ending in the book and seeing the ending the show decided to go with was raw and hard to stomach for me personally, but I think it’s important to talk about serious situations such as suicide because those are conversations that need to be had to help prevent it. I didn’t think the show was portraying that the people on the tapes should be held responsible for her committing suicide, but I think they were trying to make the point that what you do and how you treat other people matters. And you may not always know what someone is going through or has gone through. Overall I liked it. I think that it can be a great way to continue the conversation around a topic that is often shunned and left out. 

10. What do you do when you are going through an attack/crisis/episode? 

Depends on where I am. If I am in public or with other people I will silently do a grounding exercise in my head and really try to focus on deep breathing. 

If I am alone I might write out what I am thinking/feeling and cry lol. Then I will go back and figure out what caused me to feel a certain way and diffuse my thoughts to see what’s really going on–was I triggered, imagining the worst, etc.

It also depends on how I am feeling. Sometimes if I am feeling anxious I will want to be moving and workout or clean until I feel like I ready to process and write stuff down and really get into my feelings–I tend to avoid them. 
11. What is some advice you would give to someone who might be struggling with a mental illness?

To be kind to yourself and laugh at yourself. Its cheesy but honestly we are all human and all struggle with something its okay if you mess up. Also, that you are never alone and however bad you feel it will get better, it just takes time and self awareness. Don’t be afraid to reach out and get help, we all need it sometimes and there is no shame in therapy or asking for help! 

“Whatever you are feeling right now, there is a mathematical certainty that someone is feeling the exact thing. This is not to say you aren’t special. This is to say thank God you aren’t special.” Neil Hilborn

To keep this tag going I nominate:

1. Paige https://paigemckinnon.wordpress.com/

2. Amy https://mindyourwellnessblog.wordpress.com/

3. Kellie. https://fearlesslyflawedfeminist.wordpress.com/

4. Soph and Bec https://sophandbec.blog/2017/07/06/your-brain-give-it-a-rest/

5.  Marnie http://www.epicenterabablogger.com/blog

6. Kara             https://livingfaithoverfear.com/

7.  Trina http://www.cookyourselfhappier.com/

8. Kelly https://thepruimlife.wordpress.com/My 

9. Jessica       https://www.wellfednutrition.co/

10. Meg https://mentalhealthmeg.com/page/2/

11.  Nina             http://sayhellotohealing.com/

Questions for the people I tagged:

1. How long have you been blogging and what inspired you to start writing?

2.  What is your experience/journey with mental health?

3. What are you favorite self-care tips/routines/rituals?

4. What else do you enjoy, aside from blogging?

5. What is your favorite food?

6. Any book recommendations? Mental health related or just for fun?

7. What are your long term goals for your blog?

8. What’s your favorite song when you are feeling down?

9. What keeps you positive?

10. What have you found to be the most difficult about blogging so far? 

11. How has blogging or being a part of the blogging community helped you?

Thank you Jade for the tag! It was fun answering the questions and creating new ones to share! 

💚-M 

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Boundaries

 

First of all I LOVE this quote. Growing up I didn’t know much about setting boundaries, so I would often end up figuratively setting myself on fire for others.

Whether that would be by giving too much, over committing myself, being too nice, or only worrying about how everyone else felt, except for me. 

I always wanted to make everyone close to me happy and didn’t think they could handle any thing less. I felt like it was expected of me.

It wasn’t until early in my twenty’s when I would begin to have to set many boundaries with the people closest to me- pretty much all at once. 

This seems really simple when you think about it. And kind of elementary “Im setting a boundary to protect myself”. Simple as that.

Not quite. At least not for me because I never learned it. Regardless of who you have to set boundaries with I think what makes it so hard is that it is typically with the people closest to you (at least those can be the harder ones to set) and you want to be strong, share your feelings, and lay it all out. (Yeah, inner strength!)

But at the same time, deep down, you fear that the person(s) you are setting those boundaries with wont step up to meet them. 

That’s scary because you want so badly to not be let down and you want confirmation that you are worth that. (PSA: You are worth it regardless of whether or not someone is able to meet your boundary that has NOTHING to do with you or your worth.)

As many of you know I have anxiety and I can get especially anxious/emotional around confrontation (especially at that time because it was so new to me) the thought of having these hard conversations was pretty crippling to me.

What really helped me most when setting the biggest boundaries, especially within my family was to write a letter to the person I was going to talk to saying how I felt, what I needed, and a plan of what I was going to do if that person wasn’t capable of meeting my boundary.  When the times came to have those conversations I read from my letter.

As hard as it was in some of those cases, when someone couldn’t step up to meet a boundary I had set I stuck to my plan. 

This wasn’t always easy. In fact for the most part it sucked but I realized that I was only responsible for myself and couldn’t control anyone else’s feelings or actions. (again, somewhat elementary, but oh well.)

From all of this I gained more confidence in myself and even on the hardest days, days where I felt completely broken I felt like I could trust myself more. Really in the long run this only helped strengthen all of my relationships.

It’s okay to be compassionate, but do it in a way that still allows you to love yourself and stay true to yourself.

-M

 

 

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To My Fellow Mental Health Warriors…

To anyone who has a mental illness this post is for you-to remind you that you are NOT your illness. 

You are not the label or labels they gave you when you were diagnosed. 

You are not “crazy”, “stupid”, insignificant, or “dangerous”.

You are not undeserving of love and you are not less than.

You are not what the negative voices in your head or the voices of what others may say you are.

 

You ARE a fighter and you are strong.

You are brave.

You face your inner demons, no matter how exhausting it can be. And you get up the next day, and do it all again.

You are a work in progress all the while being a masterpiece of your own.

You are unafraid of facing your problems, well maybe you are afraid, but you go ahead and face them anyways.

YOU are one bad ass mother-fucker and don’t let anyone tell you any different. 

 

-M